Whimsical

   

lacorelrei copy. my new favorite word now is Whimsical which means 

playfully quaint or fanciful, especially in an appealing and amusing way. I don't really know how i do come to love this word. Well todays blog, i really want to share about Youth, talking about it really felt so nostalgic in a weird way, i never thought id be on my 19th years of my life right now. I have so many worries that i hate, it feels like a disease that come whenever you're not ready. I'm not ready, to get old and ended up regret everything. I'm not ready to say "I should've...., I could've....." Why would it became a part of our life. 
Its also painful to see, how many older people, living the life they never wanted, they were young once, and i believe that's not the kind of life, their younger selves wanted. I never once think that is fair, what do they do to not deserve a better life? while so many corrupt people living their best life, while these people suffer. 

I really want to know, do they regret their decision? do they hate their life? will they ever accept that their dream is forever just a dream? cause i wont ever accept that. But seeing them, make me realize, it doesn't matter how many bullets thrown at you when you try get your dream, if life decide not to give you the life you wanted then no. Now i want to always be young, i want to always 'finding out',  i want to always run, jump without hurting my back and i want to always be able to throw my head back laughing like a little kid. I want to stay relevant. I'm just a teenanger after all. Cause i know for sure,  this life will never be enough, the time that i had will never be enough, and all these stories will never be enough to describe how Whimsical i could be. In this very moment, i really hope you achieve all of you're dreams, and write it down when you finally meet your Whimsical but older version of yourself, and i want you to tell me that, its not 

as 'manace' as you think, its not as 'desolate' as you think, and tell me that its not that sad to not being a teenanger anymore. I always believe, dying young is better, cause i wanted to be the younger version of myself when i meet God.

+ I regularly, think about all of the woman that not be able to achieve their dreams, because the society already decide what kind of life they'll have. But isnt, to live is to be free? to be able to choose and work on it? I really hope they can free from all the chain that traped them to choose. I hope all women can study, dancing, writing, breathing, smiling, singing, drawing, baking and become a mother in a way they wanted.

 

So i hope every single person that read this, would always believe and keep their silly dreams alive with them. Even though, the dream is dashed, at least let it stay alive in you're heart, cause that'll be the nostalgia and history from you're Youth. May my 19th years old self live forever.