Cul-de-sac

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the starter of 2026s blog. there's so many draft that i made, that maybe someday i'd willing to finish. and now i would love to leave a trace about Cul-de-sac in this blog, cause this blog could've ended any time. Cul-de-sac is a phrase means a dead-end street. Originally from France means "bottom of a sack". Life can be describe a sack, which is when there's only one way to get out. Us human, relentlessly going forward, whether you want it or not, feel it or not, accept it or not, you had lived a long life. Some says 19 is old, some says 30 is, some says 50 is, and some says everyday is. And I've come into realization that "old" is created by other people, cause people see it but not you, i can be wrong, but every time i step into another year of my life, i didn't change, i thought there would be a chemical or magical reaction when you're older, if there is, i must've not noticed it. Cause i never stop aiming for changes, thinking I must not, end this way. People would call you old by seeing the wrinkles on your face, or when your bones no longer strong. If that's so, Old is such an easy word then. But, i knew it's so much more than that, maybe i'll find it out, someday.

Cul-de-sac is often used to describe dead end, designed with a rounded tip to make it easier for the vehicle to turn around. So, when we find Cul-de-sac, we never meant to stop and stuck in this journey, we must turn around. There's stages in life when the only way to get out is to get trough it again. Running away from everything would made you farther and ended up with you never win, cause the only person who thinks its an competition is you. When all this ended, who do you think would really remember how hard you trying. Maybe 2 person if you're lucky and 1000 if you're a good celebrity, and 1002 if you made such educational or fantastic impact to the world. 

Anyway, were gonna find grace at least once in our life, to finally comes to an acceptance and letting it go. Don't let anyone hurt yourself, including, you. Bumping into your self might be the most humbling moments of humans stage of life, cause life leave you scattered but all you had is your self. This phenomenon should make us aware and proud, that we never meant to put our self in the palm of other people hand. But always be greatfull for everyone around you who willingly share their love to you, cause all people suffer, but only a few take it, live it, accept it, and let it go, and still have the soul to still give love. So honor yourself and your soul more, stop drown it with all the expectation you made in your mind. But really, is there really a problem that only have one way to get out?

(this word only represent my self from the day i was born until this blog posted)